gratitude

1. hearing the Quail make little words

2. seeing Zuzu offer to help around the house

3. Zuzu’s “chapter books”

4. baby smiles

5. Zuzu’s announcement that the baby smiles have started

6. sisters in dueling pools

7.Visitors not packing up and leaving when it gets loud

8. seeing the similarities between the children and puppies

9. strawberry-rhubarb pudding cake

10. figuring out hard cases

11. coffee in the morning

12. library day

13. a kindle!

14. Nikon D7000

15. capturing wisdom from photography friends

16. finding new blogs to enjoy

17. paperback books

18. audiobooks

19. long strawberry kissed locks on the 3 year old

20. The Quail on a big girl swing

21. a memory of a first kiss

love & gratitude

1. sleepy smiles of contentment
2. the fierce shake of her baby head as she latches on

3. her burritoness

4. the slow blink that means sleep is near

5. the  offswitch effect of a tight swaddle and paci. .

6. when she snuggles her cheek into my chest.
7. her series of stretches as she wakes up from a tight swaddle.
8. watching her sisters hold her.
9. how the Quail signs sad when she hears her cry and has to go flutter around her until
someone suggests she kiss her, then carefully, she bends down to give a delicate kiss and pat to the top of her sweet head.
10. her ducky feather soft feel of her newborn hair.
11. her serene and attentive gaze.
12. her concerned baby look.
13. her fury at being burped mid feeding.
14. her long delicate fingers that move between a tight grip and a gentle and graceful
music conducting movement.
15. how she keeps her hands by the side of her face like in the ultrasound pictures.
16. how her gaze locks on me when she is hungry.
17. that Zuzu got the first smile out of her
18. how easy she is to take out on an errand, meal or appt
19. her little fierce monster sounds and flailings when I cover her up to nurse
20. the little conversations we have with her already
21. how quickly she goes from smiley, alert and chatty to asleep

gratitude & love

Love & gratitude: these seem to be crossing in my milk-muddled mind of late. I find myself making lists of the little things that are wholy unique to Sugarplum and universal to my babies. While I can’t remember which side I last nursed on a couple of hours ago, I will look down and be suddenly struck with an instance of the other girl’s babyhood that I so don’t want to lose. Within hours of her birth in the hospital I started this list of the little extraordinary baby ordinaries that were fascinating us as we started our newest adventure. Lovey and I were both struck by her uniqueness and her instant familiarity.

1.  the white frosted tips of her dark brown hair
2.  that she started growing her eyelashes before we met her
3.  her white eyebrows and underlay of hair
4.  the dark swirl of hair at the back of her head that looks suspiciously like the eye of a hurricane
5.  the baby quivering lip
6.  the baby cross-eyes when she learns to focus
7.  that she can already hold her head up in the first week
8.  her watchful deep blue eyes when she tracks during little alert periods, particularly during feeding
9.  what a champion chomper she is from day one
10. her little kitten mews, puppy snorts and odd squeaks
11. the new baby smells that I so wish I could bottle for later
12. her LOUD protests when you guess wrong
13. how her cries sound just like the Quail’s and confuse me into calling her by the Quail’s name
14. how her face is the perfect blend of her stisters- she is Zuzu from the nose on up and the Quail from the cheeks on down
15. that she’s my hungry lil catepillar- on the first day she ate 1 side and she was stillllll hungry
16. her loving to root-root-root at any opportunity- including rootin cotton
17. that I heard her cry neh 3 times on her first afternoon
18. The little bean shape of her tightly curled body that she maintains when I pick her up
19.how I couldn’t picture what she would look like or who she would be for all these months, and now each day I look down, smile and think of course it’s her
20.her tiny looking self after months of being told she was a small giant
21. how much it suddenly feels like this happy little family has always been here

gratitude

1. kind offerings to a weepy preggo

2. a 5 year old snuggled up to her Gramma

3. a 3 year old looking suspiciously at Gramma and then hugging her

4. safe arrivals

5. a special day for Gramma & Zuzu of baking, nail polishing, walks and flower gathering

6. presents for Sugarplum

7. Stister giggles

8. recital photos

9. a room full of pink poodle ballerinas

10. ballet hair

11. ambien

12. a little girl trying very hard to stay in her room till 7 am on the weekend

13. a grant for Lovey

14. a celebration dinner!

15. Lovey’s work being mentioned to a Supreme Court Judge- best Kevin Bacon round ever!

16. a house sort of picked up

17. children playing

18. borrowed baby things

19. only a little over a week to an induction date

20. Sugarplum’s new Peter Rabbit Lovey

21. well wishes for Sugarplum

gratitude

1. Children sleeping past 6 in the morning.

2. new flowers each day

3. thoughtful co-workers

4. a baby shower

5. beautiful flowers

6. yummy treats

7. a full house

8. overly generous co-workers

9. cake!

10. a good NST result

11. feeling spoiled

12. rest

13. early dinners with Lovey

14. sleep

15. flower photo time

16. pregnant belly pictures

17. a 5 year old excited to raise money for St. Judes Trike-a-thon

18. a 5 year old explaining that they are raising money to help the kids who are sick at St. Judes

19. a pink-poodle dance costume

20. making leave plans

21. lunch with friends

gratitude

1. Spring flowers in Winter

2. The azaleas planted last year mostly all blooming

3. The Paperbush happily sprouting 6 blooms- it must like it’s new home!

4. Zuzu’s poetry

5. a most excellent birthday party for the Quail

6. friends just stepping in to help as the party goes on

7. a book swap

8. tasty Strossner’s cake

9. band-aid body art

10. a doctor’s confidence in my ability

11. a scheduled induction with a beloved OB

12. a good BPP report

13. a cyber-friend’s book success

14. a hospital bag almost packed

15. a little Quail happily toddling off with her teachers

16. a happier morning with Zuzu after a stormy evening

17. reports done early

18. hurt feelings passing

19. the feeling of normalcy returning as I wake up after being certain I’m about to go in to labor every evening

20. a passing with flying colors audiology appointment and the news that the tubes, while on their way out, are still technically in

21. new pictures of Sugarplum from the visits

gratitude

1. sleep

2. being able to go back to sleep

3. weather passing

4. kind comments

5. weekly BPP

6. whisperings of a momma coming

7. E-mer-gen-cee packets

8. book recommendations

9. lunch with friends

10. Lovey returning

11. mole chicken burritos

12. children sleeping

13. perspective

14. naps

15. feeling Sugarplum

16. no barfing

17. Amazon packages

18. Dreamfield Pasta

19. piles of clean laundry

20. lunch at Zoe’s

21. the end of the week

gratitude

1. a quick recovery from a bug

2. early bedtimes

3. smiles in their sleep

4. well enough to turn sassy

5. safe travels

6.nightly kissing of the phone

7. The Quail’s newfound love of kissing the baby in my belly

8. pee-pee in the potty

9. Girl Scout cookies

10. lunch dates

11. people understanding

12. weekly dr appts

13. everything “looking good!”

14. library day

15. bedtime for momma

16. minimal weight gain

17. no contractions

18. people checking up on me

19. the next u/s scheduled

20. cake cutting

21. back massagers used by the whole family

gratitude

1. Pappa’s carry-out

2. awesome outdoor birthday parties in February

3. lil miss Zuzu splashing around a creek happy as a lark

4. acorn cookies

5. camera time at gym class with good light and the Quail

6. lunch with Lovey

7. pregnant belly photos

8. birthday cupcakes

9. sisters fairing well on a birthday for one of them but not the other

10. matching furreal pets

11. brisket

12. Lovey getting time with old friends

13. making it through single momma days

14. the crampy feeling going away

15. figuring out a mystery that’s been plaguing me

16. early spring flowers

17. photographing early spring flowers

18. reading an actual paper book!

19. enjoying monday mornings

20. birthday party preparations

21. giving input

gratitude

1. Lovey

2. a dry 2 weeks with potty training

3. Emerald Cinnamon & Cocoa almonds

4. a dinner that ended well out after a rough start

5. being ok with not liking Breaking Bad. ick.

6. my clothes put away and the groceries for the week bought.

7. swelling going down in the morning

8. kind words over words

9. a very well organized and helpful email

10. a reminder to be calm

11. Timmy-Time

12. bedtime

13. kind obs

14. lunch with friends

15. reflux fading with the low carb diet

16. a super-prize earned and a new chart started

17. an upcoming holiday

18. a 5 year old singing about an upcoming holiday

19. ready and excited for our first IEP

20. Pride in our little ones’s testing

21. a 5 year old’s excitement over gymnastics returning